Day 21
Thursday

It is bloody cold, windy and rainy outside!!  I think I woke up with a dehydration headache so I plan on downing a lot of water this afternoon before I take anything.

So on a side note I feel like my appetite wavers a lot.  Some days I'm just not hungry and I force myself to eat something before I do anything, and other days I'm hungry hungry hippo.  I don't know what all to do, it could be do to the fact that I've wavered on my exercise.  I just need to force myself to do crap when I don't feel like it.  This changing weather is killing my head but I have to get through it.

Side-Side-Note/Pity moment:  I hate looking in the mirror more than half the time.  I can't tell if I'm losing weight because I can't visibly see it.  It sucks when I have tons of water weight and just feel bigger.  UGH ITS FRUSTRATING!!  All I can tell myself is...I'm trying.  My back is looking a lot better so that's a plus.

My problem areas
Face (especially chin/cheeks)
Back
Arms
Stomach
Thighs
Butt

My calves have their soccer shape back and I'm THRILLED!

This was me in 2008, which by the way was my tiniest EVER.  I plan on getting back to this point in my life. I think I was around 115 lbs. here.

2011, this is the biggest I've ever been.  I'm not happy by any means. I refuse to tell my weight here.

So as you can see I went from a drastic skinny in 2008 to a disgusting 2012.  Ok that might be a little harsh on myself.  

Anyways...the picture from 2008 is where I want to be, not where I am now.  I am trying...hopefully I will be succeeding.